A joke going too far?

Anxiousness is now stirring up in my heart.
That leads me to reconsider of my behaviour, was it wrong?
Or, What had I done to draw people's anger, so easily?

So, what I had done was simple. I set a scheme, and people fell into it for either being innocent or deliberately want to see things happen.

My role in the plot is to play the role of a victim and beg for the mercy of the others. Pity me, spare me from trouble that I told them I was not willing to take. And when the drama was over, I showed up and told the world that they had actually all been fooled by me - what they wanted to see, would not happen. It was because there was no way of achieving it, and it had all been planned all along. Their actions, predicted, and I laughed at them.

To be more precise, they were not fooled nor insulted by me, but by themselves. I merely provided the oppturnity, and they took it.

While I dig myself a grave, they at the same time do the same.
Some of them are pissed upon realizing that...
It was all (sadistic) fun and joy to me.

Why did I have to do that though? I didn't have to do something like that, on second thought, on third thought... no, that was not necessary. And I knew very well, someone is not going to like it, especially when I speak for myself loud in such a scornful tone.

It is an act of vengeance. Act, of retaliation.
I avenge for what, or for who?
I do that for all the poor souls suffered under characteristics of such kind. Suffered from all the selfish, shallow and uncaring minds...
I will not hide my intention of drawing them shame - not that I am being evil; perhaps I am - but to be honest, they would only feel the shame if they were not innocent. Those who showed me mercy did not draw themselves disgrace. And to those who are fairminded, in my term, with depth, would either take it as just a more evil prank, or said nothing for knowing their mistakes.

Some people are boiled over, perhaps for reasons that I did not expect. I would take the blame. But before that, they'd better make sure they weren't wrong themselves.

xxxxxx

Something I have always been thinking is that: are we now, adults, university students, really so different from little kids we once were? In terms of our mental minds.

Our behaviours were always restricted and fixed strictly whenever we misbehave ourselves when wer were small. Time of better discipline, with help. We were taught to be, generous, fairminded, merciful and caring, we were taught to behave well, and maturely. Decent and reasonable.

I look back now, no longer do our parents keep buzzing beside our ears, no longer do they smack our heads to knock the logic into our brains hard, because we are now grown. But have we really become mature? This test I provided, says 'no'.

Some are being careless in thoughts
Some are being merciless, uncaring
Some are being ignorant
Some, shallow, short tempered.

This is far from the 'depth' I seek, my friends, far from the decency I seek, if you care.

Of course, If you ask me do I really harbour such hatred toward you people, am I upset over something that I have to make everybody upset as well? Do I like causing trouble and drama to arouse attention?

Negative to all.

I like and love you people. I trust most of you and harbour favors the same. I dislike conflict, it hurts me to know that I upset some of you too, as if I have upset myself. It wouldn't benefit me from any ways directly in pain.

However, it hurts me more to just see something not right happens and passes by.
And now here we are again, another 'misunderstanding'. I started a war and I intend to face it, with all of you. Perhaps this is why I have to put all my destructive thoughts into this prank just to get some people hurt and satisfy myself.

I did not mind to be condemned, though not willingly (no generous person would really care anyway. Those with EQ high enough would only think I am being mo liu and shrug the matter off their shoulders). I am just honestly showing you another fragment of my soul. Like it or not, it is your choice. But know one thing, this is at most a prank, not something vile.

Take it as a chance of reflection, it is the various weaknesses or mistakes you have shown to yourself by this opportunity that somewhat made the world imperfect.

It had created unhappiness, misunderstandings and rage. Bolstered our sense of 'self', less of 'others'.
And it has created the same thing this time.
It will create the same in the future as well, if we do not become more careful with ourselves, and maintain a control.

Perhaps pointing out issues too sharply is not the best way to everyone for the sake of sharing and/or convincing. (That I do not doubt)
But while you are questioning is this how I treat friends? Shouldn't friends be nicer to each others? Know one thing, consider this as a gift from me, a gift from a friend. I am being nice too, jut this time, not in laughters anymore.

To those who are innocent in this, take this as a warning from an overworried person. Though I am pretty sure this long paragraph's shadow would fade from your impression in matter of days. But I hope you will remember this in time, when one day you accidentally hurt something you cherished, or the innocence, for the same weakness shown this time.

Peace